Apathy & Hikikomori

What I'm Reading: Lisa, Bright and Dark by John Neufeld. © 1969 by S.G. Phillips, Inc. Page 129/143

Reflections: An immensely interesting book about insanity.



Music I'm Listening To: Lonely Day--System of a Down

Musings: A good song for those days you're ignored or lonely. I listen to it a lot lately :P

There are those days when you wish you'd just disappear. There are those days in which you wish the world would disappear. There are those days where everything's sunshine and rainbows, when all is well with the world.

Then there are those days where you just can't seem to care.

Apathy (n.)-Apathy is a psychological term for a state of indifference -- where an individual is unresponsive or "indifferent" to aspects of emotional, social, or physical life. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apathy)

Apathy seems to be rife these days, running rampant throughout society and its many-aged occupants. Teenagers, especially, are affected by this. There comes a point in life where you just quit caring, period. When you're like, "You know what? I don't care. I don't care that I failed math. I don't care that I won't graduate. I don't care that my parents don't trust me, that my friends hate me, that I won't ever get a job. I just don't care anymore." THAT leads to some serious problems.

I think that apathy is caused by "fight, flight, or freeze" mode that occurs in the brain. (also, sometimes, called procrastination...but that's for later =p) For example, there's a test on Friday. Today is Monday. You are unsure of where to start, whether or not you're ready for the exam, ect....You latch onto the first course of action you think of -you'll study later. Thus, the "freeze". Trying to do everything sometimes ends up as doing nothing at all. Fearing to fail can result in self-sabatoge; by thinking that you'll fail anyway, you try (subconsciously, even) less and therefore fail, fulfilling your earlier thoughts of failure.

That's also known as the self-fulfilling prophecy.

I'm in a bit of a fix right now. I've hit that teenager stage of not caring about anything anymore. I could probably become a hikikomori and be satisfied. It's not like I don't have enough conspiracy theories, or...actually, I think I'll just leave it at that for now. Tomorrow, I shall report on my army. ^-^